its hard to pinpoint where this all started. throughout school i was purely left brained. like a concrete wall, i dont remember feeling much, or being able to express anything. which, led to some shortfalls in my social life. fortunately i never really had trouble finding friends, they just sort of appeared. i was depressed and anxious, but not in an obvious way. i didnt even know what those words meant. a confusingly odd mix of a child that wanted to rebel but was too terrified to upset anyone. my youthly naivete had me convinced that i was the smartest person i knew, which was humbly disproven as i aged. i wanted to be the best at everything, but i was also too afraid to fail, it was more convenient to just not try. something that plagued me for most of my life. something im still trying to outrun. i guess thats why most of the projects that will be uploaded here are unfinished or just ideas.
i had taken a mild interest in the popular basquiats and dalis, more knowing rather than appreciating. a friend of mine played swimming pools while driving to campus. the song stuck with me and i looked into the artist that made it. the overwhelming amount of praise compelled me to listen to more. once i got into kendrick, it opened up a new world of music for me. i discovered an appreciation for the depth of emotion music can communicate. this pushed me to find more music like this.
led by the overwhelming hype i found myself waiting for the release of blond. which is probably the most influencial piece of media ive consumed. so yeah, listened to that, started to look into the samples, this started my obesssion with stevie after finding the sample on close to you. soul music has been my most played genre since then.
during a live concert frank wore a shirt that said, why be racist, sexist, homophobic, or transhopbic when you could just be quiet. this simple white tee with text went viral and disrupted the music community and opened a dialogue about these issues. i thought, this is amazing. i could do this too. so i started.